The International Writers Magazine: Travel Without Destinations
purposefully purposeless travel, helps a person live better than
they might have otherwise. That can be a dangerous thing to do.
It changes the world around you. People sharing your world start
squirming. When you first start traveling, people are excited
for you. Continue traveling and, sooner or later, theyll
begin asking you, "Why?"
the question. I understand Im making them feel uncomfortable.
So why do I continue to travel? Is it just to stretch my legs? Hold
encroaching age at bay? Am I still seeking to experience new cultures
and learn new things? Am I running so I dont ever have the regret
of moaning, "I should have
Well, maybe, its just to get lost for a while and encounter myself
and people and places that would otherwise have gone unknown. Yes, that
is the real truth; the whole truth. I love losing myself inside places
where I'm already standing. Sometimes when I'm traveling, when I'm just
wandering and end up getting lost in the breath of some un-tethered
now moment-to-moment without stabbing mental hooks into present circumstances
and clinging anxiously to future placements - that is to say, when I'm
freed and independent of my mind and my known self - it seems as if
I trip into a new sphere of living, a whole new placement in space and
time that momentarily leaves me reeling. It's a "someplace else"
just across some invisible border that looks exactly like where I've
been standing, walking or sitting but isn't exactly that one place anymore.
A sphere, a life, that's just off-kilter by a hair's breadth, as if
all of everything teeming around me are refractions of light and space
placed on another surrounding surface entirely, and now I'm living on
that surface, too. Its just a thread's circumference beyond the
boundary of the more familiar reality Ive stepped beyond momentarily,
a reality that I can still sense on the other side of the mirror.
I've come to love these moments of haphazard visitation, for that's
when I seem to move easier inside a world that thrives with grace. That's
when I'm enchanted by the light and energies darting all around me in
the form of crowds of people, and the structures, the earth that have
come so vibrantly alive to me, been cleansed, clarified and amplified
and seem, each and all of them, so...essential. No matter what.
Those lost moments when Ive crossed borders into some new visceral
awareness of the essence of who and why the world really exists, those
moments are the ones I gulp great memories of, as vital to my life as
oxygen, so that I may live the moments of my life here even better.
© Claire Krulikowski May 2005
author of RAPTURE and MOONLIGHT ON THE GANGA & the forthcoming LIVING
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